First time cooking a congee and I have no idea how much rice I need...... And so I put in two and s half cups.... Now... Its like a big pot of soaked rice.... .___. Please turn into a congee....at the very least...

First few days in Aussie!~ moving in with sis~ and next thing I know... I have bloody crap. :| literally.

Note to self, eat more fibres lol

And forecast says that there will be hail tomorrow. Interesting~~~

Random fact: my circle goes clockwise

Welp! Changed glasses lenses since my power increased by.... 20 I think @@? My astigmatism got worse too lol! Need to reduce playing mobile games now. Need to focus more on studies! Don't want to cause my scholarship to be discontinued...

Oh well! All prepared! Pretty decent monthly allowance of AUD1900~ :3 have to make sure to maintain it!

I should start a pen and paper diary to jot down what I do, what I need to do, deadline, money spent, money wasted and what I have learned daily!

God... I'm now sorting out receipts and amount of payments made prior to claim from my scholarship funding body...

Well... It's actually and easy and quick one... Just that I'm too distracted with chatting on FB and trying to ask friends out for a movie or something since it's pretty much my last month in Malaysia lol

Hope I won't forget stuff easily and don't miss any deadlines after this... Imma starting a pen and paper diary from.... Let's just delay it until I settle down in Aussie //procrastinates

Everything's going well again :)

Came to KL to get my visa done and coincidentally there's this on boarding session from the scholarship funding body this coming Tuesday~ good thing! I don't have to travel an extra round~

Still blur about the details for the scholarship... :s let's wait till tuesday~ :3

It's hard.

When you screw up something so badly, and you know it is your own fault, it is already a very awful feeling.

Knowing that what's done is done and it is irreversible.

Knowing that your whole life may be ruined by this very mistake.

Oh, so as to make it more miserable, the people around you starts to question on how did it end up like that.

The people whom you are closest to.

The people whom you care for the most.

The people who cared about you the most.

Or at least I don't think that they really, actually, sincerely cared.

Why? Of course! When you are already at a dead end, struggling so hard to find a way out of it, they all start putting every single blame on you!

Thanks very much for the reminder.

You may as well just push me when I'm standing at the edge of a building.

Just stop talking! Stop those words!

I will break.

Ugh it's been a few days since I last posted... Welp. I finish teaching on the 27th~ done with my part time job... Now... Waiting for my acceptance of university offer to be processed and waiting for the confirmation of enrolment... And it seems to take forever! @@

Oh well... Same goes to the official confirmation of my scholarship offer... OTL

anyways... I spent long hours drawing something last night and this morning when I woke up... (Which was like half an hour ago lol! Its noon already!) My head feels like crap.

I'm just wondering... When a person wakes up the next morning after being wasted for the night... Will it feel worse?

Yay! Got my scholarship offer few days ago and I am on another week of vegie diet! Lol

Welp, besides my sister turned 30 yesterday, I guess there's nothing much.

Going for the spiderman movie tomorrow morning... Let's hope it is not taken down yet....

Had triple beef burger with cheese *throws confetti* at the R&R Sungai Buloh on the way back from interview ~

The interview was pretty... Simple... It's totally like conversing with a friend lol anyways let's hope it is a good sign :) *fingers crossed*

Happy Teacher's Day to me... Thats like two days ago... But mobile blogger failed to post... Urgh...

Anyways celebrated Mother's Day yesterday~ its delayed cause I was vegetarian for that week... Sorry mum!

Getting ready for my final scholarship interview tomorrow! Pray hard I will do well and get the scholarship! *prays really hard*

I actually got a gift from a student for Teacher's Day although I am just a part timer there~ really happy! X3

I saw on the television, some guy went around the world on a project which mission is to look for the people born on the same day same month and same year as him. Lol I thought it is a very interesting one! And he said he is looking for his time twins~ really interesting and sounds fun!

It was mother's day and unfortunately on this day itself my mum slipped and fell in the bathroom... And I actually didn't immediately rushed to help her cause I thought it was just some objects shifting when I heard the clanging sounds... T.T I AM SO SORRY MUM!!

Went to the temple to pray before Wesak and prayed hard that I will get a scholarship offer for my studies...

Note to self: always check the source of any noise!

Its school day today even though its a Saturday... //sigh and god the time is CRAWLING! with only a few students in class = can't really teach... I was basically sitting around and staring at wall... I kinda feel guilty for actually getting paid for today... Well I think it'll be even better if they actually paid me during the jogathon day... I mean... At least I did something on that event itself... Not just sitting around and wait for time to pass...

Oh and cause of this and tomorrow's Mother's Day... Missed the weekend to hang out with my buddy T.T she is going to her uni by Friday and we are both working on weekdays... //sigh...

I guess I'll go meet up with her if I have a chance to...And also meet up with a few of my college classmates... Haven't seen them ever since we got our results...

//sigh

Going vegie day #2 and I got an email saying that I need to go for an interview in the morning the very next day at KL. Woohoo! A step closer to getting a scholarship!

Packed up my stuff, wrote in an appeal for NTU (last minute lol, deadline was the day itself) and set off to KL. wasn't feeling too well that time... And was really sleepy... So was a bit cranky and snapped at everything... I should really fix that attitude of mine...

Going vegie day #3. Went for the interview in the morning and was in the waiting room with three postgraduate guys... Amusingly, two of them were Salleh(s) so there was a brief confusion when the first Salleh was called into the interview room lol

The interview asked mainly on family background and extra curricular activities. But god I stuttered and forgot so many things... *sob* I can only pray for the best...

On the way home I wasn't feeling too well either and barely ate... When we finally reached home... I got bad diarrhoea... Almost 10 rounds in 2 hours or so... God it is so damn exhausting!

dear diarrhoea... Please let me take a break and at least let me catch a wink...

It got less frequent after taking some prescribed medication... but still...

Oh well... Hope it gets well by tomorrow so I can still go for work... *prays hard*

Going vegie, just day #1 itself proves its effectiveness! I got news from a scholarship I've applied to (and did not ace the interview previously) having an assignment sent to me at 11am and to be completed by 4pm....

Welp. Took a day off from my part time teaching and managed to send it in on time with some input from my siblings~ good to have my family by my side during times like this. I can't imagine my day without them.

Imma gonna go vegie for the whole week! *fired up!*

It's already a few days past my 20th birthday. I initially intended to start a new blog/journal on my birthday but things happened and it totally slipped my mind.

I just feel like it would be great to keep a short note as such on a daily basis. To reflect on daily happenings and might put a grin on how silly I was that time and sorts. And I did keep some blogs of this sort in the past.... But past begone lol too.... embarrassing....

Well, to start things off, I am gonna be a vegetarian for a week from today on, until Wesak Day! *fired up*

An idea initiated by my elder sis and I thought, why not?! Lol. Cause things really aren't going my way recently. Sitting at home with University of Melbourne offer in hand but lacking financial support from my family and no good news from the scholarship programmes which I had applied to.

Was hoping that I would get an offer from a Singapore University but it got shot down (gonna write in an appeal soon :'( ), at least an offer for admission if not scholarship... *sigh* I mean... My results are not straight A* but at least it's a straight A's.... And I'm not applying for Medicine too...

Oh well... Life goes on... I'm gonna stay local then... I should have taken up the Matriculation offer after my SPM that time, is what I would have said some time ago. But now, I know that there's no use complaining, instead, I should learn something from my mistakes and move on.

And so, why not go vegie for a week and maybe my luck would turn for the better :) Honestly, I'm not that holy myself (having beef as my favourite even though there's a Guanyin idol right in my living room) but no harm trying. Perhaps I would be more of a believer from then on and stop taking beef and sorts.

Ugh... Another thing is that after a month or so transferring to the morning session, I am transferred back to the afternoon session. Although I am really just a temporary teacher, I do feel I should be responsible in what I do... But... The students... I just can't get them to focus on what I'm teaching... And... I am bad at handling kids/younger teenagers... They don't like listening to me... *sigh* urgh my throat hurts.... *glugs down some 100 plus*

Alright! Vegies for a week!!