I should start a pen and paper diary to jot down what I do, what I need to do, deadline, money spent, money wasted and what I have learned daily!

God... I'm now sorting out receipts and amount of payments made prior to claim from my scholarship funding body...

Well... It's actually and easy and quick one... Just that I'm too distracted with chatting on FB and trying to ask friends out for a movie or something since it's pretty much my last month in Malaysia lol

Hope I won't forget stuff easily and don't miss any deadlines after this... Imma starting a pen and paper diary from.... Let's just delay it until I settle down in Aussie //procrastinates

Everything's going well again :)

Came to KL to get my visa done and coincidentally there's this on boarding session from the scholarship funding body this coming Tuesday~ good thing! I don't have to travel an extra round~

Still blur about the details for the scholarship... :s let's wait till tuesday~ :3

It's hard.

When you screw up something so badly, and you know it is your own fault, it is already a very awful feeling.

Knowing that what's done is done and it is irreversible.

Knowing that your whole life may be ruined by this very mistake.

Oh, so as to make it more miserable, the people around you starts to question on how did it end up like that.

The people whom you are closest to.

The people whom you care for the most.

The people who cared about you the most.

Or at least I don't think that they really, actually, sincerely cared.

Why? Of course! When you are already at a dead end, struggling so hard to find a way out of it, they all start putting every single blame on you!

Thanks very much for the reminder.

You may as well just push me when I'm standing at the edge of a building.

Just stop talking! Stop those words!

I will break.